To You:

I see you in my dreams you creep in them and smile, yet here i am and you nowhere in sight. I'm lost your comforting whispers that once sung in the wind while i pranced in ash  yet you left me. and I'm trapped and tied down to his words. Let me free. This body no longer accepts me. Breath by breath tear by blood. Pain such joy winces throughout my body. Yet i reach out to your remaining shadow but you just linger till your last smear. Are you going to become like the rest? leave me here to listen to false lies and give me calculating smiles. I AM NOT YOUR SERF!!!!!! please...say I'm not....They all coerce me to do the things i have become. My tears shed with blood shot eyes. I smile with the taste of iron. I smell the death within myself. Yet they coerce me to my knees with their pride's. But you, i believed you were my god, savior  my succubi. I have already given you everything, yet that! And i find myself again wandering in the ash but now without your whispers of wisdom but only the sound of my shattering body because there is no heart within me. just a cluster of feelings that i wish i did not have. But it is late now i must go out and false myself and deceive that all is well when in reality i see my own demise and my dreams gone into the omission. By the time a witness can read this. I most likely would have perished. I am so young in age, yet so old in soul. This body cannot withstand my own self. Yet he says he loves me. And he says i love him. But why is it that i could careless if i stopped kissing or talking to him. All i want is you to come back and let us have our night once again with one another. YOU and I are THE SAME! lost, confused, understanding, pained, madmen, demons. We listen to their cupidity. And ask a small price. Yet we starve. I starve.  FEED ME! FEED ME! FEED ME! ahahahahAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!! I have searched so long for your human form. I wish to FEAST. But the world has truly changed in only a few decades. How fast. How slow. HOW IMPUDENT! So since I can never ask you in our n'mare. I ask you now,                               

CAN I KILL YOU?